Have you ever felt like tearing your hair out? I don’t have a great deal left but, this morning, that’s how I felt! I felt completely overwhelmed by things today. A lot to do, in fact, I dare not look at my to do list, a full diary and if there is any light at the end of the tunnel, it’s probably going to be a train.
In the book of Psalms, there are some words known as the Deo Profundis
Out of the depths I cry to you, O LORD. Lord, hear my voice! Let your ears be attentive to the voice of my supplications! (Psalm 130 vs. 1 – 2)
Okay, to be fair, I get like this from time to time. It’s one of my weaknesses and it’s an indication that I need to take a bit of time off and restore some perspective. Sometimes this happens because I have said “yes” too many times. Sometimes, it happens because I am faced with an enormous decision and I don’t want to get it wrong and I become aware of the responsibility I carry.
On this occasion, I think it is because I am facing that enormous decision. I know that whichever direction I go in, will carry with it some major implications. This decision is making me feel “out of my depth”.
This led me to think about something that I know worries many people. What is the right choice and, how do I know I am making it?
There are times when I wish I heard a voice from heaven directing me “choose this way” and I would feel confident that, I was at least in God’s will. Or, if I threw open the Bible and words “leaped off the page at me”. I have even prayed that God would send somebody who moved in the prophetic who could come into my office and say “thus says the Lord…”
None of this has happened so, what am I to do?
I began to wonder, are there times when God doesn’t give us a direct lead? Are there times when, God doesn’t mind which path we choose? Are there times when what God is looking at is the attitude of our hearts when we make the choice?
Perhaps, as I face this decision, that is what God is challenging me with “Sean, what is your attitude in this?”
The Deo profundis ends with the words;
O Israel, hope in the LORD! For with the LORD there is steadfast love, and with him is great power to redeem. (Psalm 130 vs. 7)
As I read these words again, I personalized it. Maybe you need to hear these words too
O (your name), hope in the LORD! For with the LORD there is steadfast love, and with him is great power to redeem. (Psalm 130 vs. 7)